From Vegetarian to Vegan (REVISED)

I previously wrote about turning vegan after 5 years of being vegetarian, and i said it sucks, but now that i've been vegan for a couple of months i should take that back. I said that maybe because it was very recent and adjusting to changes always is a bit difficult, changing your diet and now watching more what you eat, making sure everything you eat has no animal products on it it's kind of annoying. But now that time has passed and i being doing this for a little while, is not as bad as it seems. Change always brings new things to explore, to try and enjoy. When i was a meat eater i hated salads, nuts, some vegetables, vinegar, olives, etc etc, so many things that i refused to eat because i had my chicken and my meat and cheese that were so delicious, so why would i eat those things that taste weird if i can eat my "regular" food?? But being a vegan has made me enjoy more all the amazing and delicious things the earth give us, every thing i eat has such an amazing taste, even the little lettuce leaf, i enjoy every bit of it, the vegetables, chestnuts, OMG my favorite thing in the world, salads with just vinegar and olive oil salt and pepper, so delicious, you don't need all those greasy, creamy dressings you put on your salad, they take away all the taste of the vegetables, and add tons of calories and unnecessary things to your perfectly fine salad. Being vegan has opened my eyes to better things, all of a sudden is easier to not overeat, to maintain a healthy diet without an effort, is just what you normally eat. I just feel amazing and blessed that i had my eyes opened, that i can enjoy the best things in life without harming the most beautiful creatures in life, Animals!!!

From Vegetarian to Vegan

Ok, so it's about 2 or 3 weeks I'm Vegan... but let me tell you something that maybe no vegan would have the balls to say it... Being Vegan SUCKS!!!! yes, it does, and don't try to say it doesn't cause you would be lying to yourself... BUT... big BUT!!! I'm not talking about all the benefits it has for the animals and your health... but because this world is NOT MADE FOR VEGANS!!! at all, even though humans are supposed to be Vegans by nature... if you study our anatomy and stuff we are made to eat plants NOT MEAT... but anyway... that is something I'm not gonna talk about now... What do i mean by being vegan sucks... like i said it's because this modernized world, industrialized world is not vegan friendly... Shopping for vegan food sucks.. you have to pay so much attention to every single thing, every single ingredient of what you put in your mouth... if you see a weird word... EFF you gotta look up what the hell is it and WHERE does it come from... imagine doing this with every new thing you are trying, cause this is what you have to do, otherwise you would have to live on plants forever, so we need our substitutes (remember, I'm not a vegan because i don't like animal products, I'm vegan for compassion reasons, for anticruelty reasons, for environmental reasons and health reasons) with that said... yes i need my cheese substitute my meat substitute etc etc... So i go food shopping because i wanted to make some pasta... and i wanted to have some grated "cheese" with it, and i get this cheese substitute and first thing i see is CONTAINS MILK OR MILK DERIVATES.... WTF?????????? so why the hell is a substitute if it still has milk in it?? seriously... and this is not the first time.. MOST of meat substitutes either have eggs or milk in them, the cheese substitutes have casein( milk protein) in them... WHY?????  so now i have to go in a new adventure to look for another kind of vegan products.... it's like looking for gold in the beach... BUT whatever... i'll keep doing it... (i guess this is one reason why people don't become vegans) lazy and not committed people would give up in a second.... I truly believe in what I'm doing and nothing can make me change about this EVER!!!!! :)

Senses...

 This might seem exaggerated to some people, others might think I'm crazy but whatever to me is important and that's why I'm writing this. A couple days ago I went to the beach and I got water in my ear, it got clogged really bad for 4 days I could barely listen with my right ear, at first I thought It will go away then as the time went by I started to worry I tried tons of things to make this go away but nothing worked, I called the doctor on Friday but they had no availability till next Friday.. I started to panic I thought this could not last more than a couple of days.. And I started reading about this on the Internet and some people had this problems for months I thought how am I gonna live without listening well it's very annoying and of course I couldn't listen anything too loud so no movie theater no concerts CONCERTS!!!! My life is music and I can't live without it not even a day passes without me listening to music. I was freaking out, as much as I wanted and tried to think positive I couldn't,  But today out of nowhere I woke up and it popped!!! I couldn't believe it it was like I was never able to listen and now I could. I guess we never stop and think about this little things that make our lives an amazing journey. With all it's ups and downs its amazing!! Being able to listen our parents voice saying I love you, our pets noises, our favorite band's guitar riffs and the songs that give some sense to what we feel, the birds singing and the waves breaking in the shore. Nothing in this world compares to what we are able to appreciate with our senses, the colors and smell of things. I take every experience I have like a lesson and even though this might not seem a big deal to some it definitely taught me to appreciate what I have. No money, no power, no fame or anything can replace what we are given by nature!! I am happy,extremely happy with everything I have! And I'm gonna take care of myself and enjoy every single thing like it's my last day. 

"FRIENDS"

OK... I've been thinking about this for quite a while, i was just looking for the best way to get it out.
Friends... yes, I'm actually gonna talk about what friend or friendship means, because some people don't actually get those words. First, not because facebook says we are friends, means we actually are. When i call somebody my friend is because i truly feel some kind of connection with that person, something that goes beyond words, and it pisses me off that people go around calling themselves friends, just because we happened to meet and hang couple of times. NO! Friendships don't work that way, at least not with me. When I'm friends with someone, i truly care about them, i check on them every now and then, i call, i text, write, and find time to see them (If they live in the same country of course). I know, we don't need to see each other every single day, or talk or text or anything every day to be friends, I'm not saying that at all. But when somebody supposedly consider themselves your friends and they don't make the smallest effort to even check how the fuck are you doing, that's when i realize that most people are full of shit. I've found amazing people that i can actually call friends and i feel truly blessed to have met them and have them in my life. You know who you are :) and of course i have my oldest friends in my country who i talk way more to even though they live hundreds of miles away, than to people that live right here and i never hear from them... and they think we are friends... haha!!! fuck you...

Well that's pretty much it.... i just needed to get this shit out... and continue to be happy with the people that truly matter to me! Love my friends with all my heart!!!! <3

CHANGE, IS NOT THAT DIFFICULT!

As i watched some videos about our world being in such bad shape, in every way possible, i just think about how people don't realize this. How difficult is to realize that we are destroying our own home, our own species, and of course the rest of species on earth, i don't understand why people don't open their eyes. Would you realize if your house was on fire?, or if you fight so much, and criticize and judge the people you live with, your family, that you are destroying your relationships?, would you realize this, all of this that is happening right before your eyes? I think so, we are not stupid to notice our house is on fire and all our memories are being destroyed, that we are being so selfish and mean that the people around us are leaving, are hurting. So if we can see this, why can't we see that the earth (our home) is burning? is being destroyed, and the people are in pain, suffering, being abused or neglected all around the world, animals being killed for no reason. All of this is happening right before our eyes, every second of every day, and we watch and don't move a muscle to make a difference. Would you let your house burn? your family die? NO! We run and try to save all we can, and everyone we can, right? So why are people so lazy, when it comes to make a move, to change their habits and behaviors so they can make a difference in the world?
It's easier to pretend nothing is happening, because is not happening next door, or to our neighbors... it's happening in the other side of the world, as long as it doesn't affect me, what do i care?, most of the people say, or, "if i stop contaminating, I'm only one person, it's not gonna make a big difference".
They don't realize it will, change starts within ourselves, if we change our mind we can change anything we want, and as people follow the "trends" we can create a trend that can change the world, our home, and lead the whole world to a better place. Respecting life in every form, and cultures, ways of life, tolerate and try to learn from others and help them when they are in need.
Change is not that difficult, it won't happen in one day, but we can start today, start with ourselves. We can make a difference, We can be the difference. Just think about it.

**BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD** - Mahatma Gandhi

Animal Cruelty

I just found a documentary about how society treats animals, it's called earthlings, i was thinking i should watch it cause animal cruelty is a cause that i care a lot about and i fight against it every day, i'm extremely sensitive about this issue, i can't watch an animal being abused, is just something i can't control, i can't do it. But with this documentary i was thinking i should get some balls and watch it. i went to their website, where u can watch it for free, and also check out the trailer. i think i watched 1 minute if not less of the trailer and i started sobbing like a little baby, it's outrageous, disgusting, awful how animals are treated by humans. i don't get it..... WHY???? why are we so cruel, so evil, why is the humanity such a piece of shit? I think about how mean we are to each other, why would it would be different with animals?? I don't know if i'm crazy or if the anger inside of me after seeing this and knowing this is an ongoing situation, but i kind of understand if we are mean to each other, after all people are like that, we have good and bad feelings, and we have to defend ourselves from evil people, but animals??? WHY???? what have animals done to us??? have they betrayed us?? lied to us??? hurt our feelings??? have they???? NO!!!!!!!! NEVER!!!!! even the most dangerous animals on earth, if they attack a human it's not spitefully... not because it wants to hurt of kill for the pleasure of it, or for revenge... it's instinct!!!!
So i don't understand, i can't understand WHY would they kill the baby seals in canada, or hunt the dolphins, skin the minks, kill the elephants and take their tusks out. there is no justification for this NONE AT ALL!!!!!
I'm not trying to turn anyone vegetarian, i get ppl wanna eat meat n milk n bla bla bla.. i get it, BUT is really necessary to be cruel to the animals in order to get this?? is necessary to beat them? to cut the chickens beaks, to torture the baby cows??? i don't think so...
But what it really makes me angry is the industries where animals are killed for pleasure or unnecessary things like skins, leather, hunting, dolphins?? WHO EATS DOLPHINS??? or the puppy mills, come one people seriously???
Im just gonna stop now... cause writing about this makes me so angry, i just want people to open their eyes, to help stop this insanity!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you have the guts to watch Earthlings DO IT!!!!!! it will definitely open your eyes and if it doesn't i just think you deserve to die and rot in hell......

http://www.earthlings.com/  Here is the link for the documentary...

TRUST

Trust.. to me is one of the hardest things to do.. Why?? Because people's intentions are difficult to see for a lot of people... but to me, i can feel it... i can sense when something is not right with someone.
When i meet someone i can feel the energy towards me, that's how i let people in my world or not.
I don't take chances with anybody.. i don't trust or like anyone until they prove me wrong... or as i said their energy is positive when i meet them... U can't go wrong on energy, it's just there, and you can feel it... is overwhelming either way, positive or negative, if you are aware or sensitive enough you will sense it, believe me, i made my closest friends out of that, is just a connection you can't avoid... like magnets.
So, my question now... is, if you feel negative or weird energy around someone you care about, how can you prevent it to affect that person if they seem not to realize? or even they are attracting this negativity towards them without even thinking about it...

i just needed to get this out of my chest... You can't trust people just because they say nice words, or put a nice face... there's more than that, words are gone with the wind... sometimes actions are better than words, but people tend to forget about actions, but what it really matters is the feeling you get out of something, the gut feeling is almost always right, so if you don't feel right about something don't do it... cause there's a reason why deep inside you the whole thing just don't click. Trust yourself always... cause you will never be dissapointed.

Energy changes everything...

Energy is all around us... moves everything around you and makes things happen... All of my life or at least since i remember i was kind of a negative person... mmm... well not so much of a negative person but someone how would get mad at stupid stuff and making a big deal out of nothing... But the last couple of months have being amazing... I really don't know how i got to the point of being happy 95% of the time... (everyone has their bad moments) but i'm happy most of the time... Last year was a bit rough on me and my family, and by the end of the year something so unfair happened to me, but out of somewhere inside me i found the strength to pull through and i won the battle... i was so surprised of the way i handled it... seriously... i thought i was gonna get all upset and depressed, of course i was the first two days.. but then puff!!! magic... i was over it.. and just living life as i wanted to... It's true how things can be what you want them to be.. it's just the attitude you have towards them that makes a big difference...

I think all of this is a combination of many things... first i did a homeopathy session.. i think that helped me a lot... then.. i took negative people out of my life... and met amazing new people with so much good energy and strength, and then of course the fact that i've changed my whole attitude towards everything... I filled my life with positive energy and everything started to change.

I can feel how all of this has changed me... Now i can look back and laugh at the silly things i used to get mad about... and look forward and see how amazing my life is.. and is gonna be for as long as i want it to be... 

I am a firm believer of the law of attraction... is simple as YOU ONLY GET WHAT YOU GIVE and i live by that... I am truly happy and full of strength... :) 

AND BTW!!! HAPPY SPRING EQUINOX!!!!!!!!!!! <3 

Tattoos and memories Pt. 1

i love tattoos.... if i had a lot of money i would probably get tons of them... but i don't so i get important ones only.. :)
The first tattoo i got, i got it like 9 years ago... to cover a scar i had after a surgery... since then i fell in love with tattoos and the idea of having a visible and palpable memory of something important to you right there on your skin...
Besides pictures, i think tattoos are the best way to remind you and pay tribute to something or someone that left a mark on your life...
It's your body do whatever you want to it, but to me, i would never fill it with meaningless tattoos..
So the first one reminds me of my surgery... reminds me of how i was feeling towards the idea of being sick, of having to leave all my dreams aside and probably having to get chemo... i remember i was clueless... i use to say.. i don't care.. i'll be fine this is gonna make me skinny and bald.. and i'm gonna look like a badass punk-rock chick... haha!!! not knowing how strong and damaging chemo actually is... i was gonna quit college for a while till i was done with the treatment...  But then.. the test came... and i was clean... no need for chemo... :) everyone was so happy for me... i was too... but i never stopped to think what were my parents going through thinking i was gonna have to go through all of that... i was kind of out of it.. maybe a way to block all of the anguish, i didn't let this take me down... now that i think about it, i can't even believe how calm i was.... health is the most important thing in life. if u r not healthy u have nothing... I think that attitude i had... that calmness, that positivism made everything bad turn into good... as the law of attraction says.. you only get what you give... i had the best positive energy.. so i got positive outcome.... :)

This is the meaning of my first tattoo.... and i'm glad i have it, i'm glad i went through all of this cause it made me a stronger person... and i value everything i have :)

Why meeting the band is so important???

Ok... i get they are interesting and stuff... of course some of them are gorgeous... BUT.... why if you go to a concert, why do people stress about meeting the band??? Yeah some people would say, it's cool to meet who you admire, i totally get that... i'm not saying is a bad thing, to me it only gets bad when meeting the band is more important than actually enjoying their show.... I've seen people focus completely on following the band after a show until they get a picture or an autograph..

To me there is no better memory than the music they just played... most of the bands i go see, give their best onstage... so why follow them after if you just got what you came for... THEIR MUSIC RIGHT???

just something i've been thinking about....